It's been a week since I posted last. Not too much has gone on... we celebrated my 22nd birthday on Wednesday. It was special since it was my first one with Lucy. I had a wonderful day. I've always loved birthdays and this one was no exception. I did eat WAY too much cake and ice cream though... but calories don't count on birthdays ;)
Speaking of calories- Since about mid-January Thom and I have been trying to live a healthier lifestyle. I'm not going to say we are on a diet because we eat normal food... just smarter portions of it. I think that's the way to go anyways. We all know I'd be crazy to say that I'm going to pass up a cookie or some icecream for the rest of my life. Since the morning my water broke I have lost around 55 lbs. Now, now, before anyone starts going crazy you have to remember that I HAD A BABY! HA! Now that's a sure-fire way to lose a good 10 lbs. or so. Lucy weighed 7lb 12 oz. PLUS think of the water weight. By the time we came home from the hospital I already weighed about 20 lbs. less...so I guess I shouldn't take credit for those. (I'm going to anyways :P )
What are you doing? You may be asking. Well, I am providing food for another human being. I think this is probably the reason that weight loss hasn't been nearly as hard this time around. I guess it's my reward for all the trouble we had in the beginning and for STILL having to get up atleast 2 times during the night. I also watch my portions and a little bit of what I eat. I can get away with eating more right now because of nursing Lucy but, I plan on weaning her in about 2 months so I'm trying to train myself to eat better things...(and to realize that I do not have to finish ALL the cookies in 24 hrs.) I've also been exercising lately. I'll go ahead and say it- I'm really proud of myself for this one. I have made goals for myself. My goal for the month of march is to do atleast 1 mile a day and on most days I've done 3-5 miles! I can really tell that it's made a difference and it's not THAT bad. I actually really enjoy it sometimes. Next month I'm going to try 30 day shred...here's hoping I can get through it!
For the first time, weight loss isn't just about looking good. Sure, I want that as a result. Who doesn't? But, I have a little girl now. I will be her primary model of how to view her body. I don't want her to grow up seeing me comment on my 'muffin top' or how I wish I could lose weight. I think when girls see their moms making comments about their own weight it makes them self conscious of their own bodies. I hear so many girls in our small groups comment on how they feel pressure to look a certain way and I'm going to do everything I can to help alleviate that pressure for my little sweetie. I want to show her how to be healthy (not skinny, or how to look good in your jeans) and show her what it's like to feel confident in your body so she can feel confident in her body. She's my motivation. But, this journey is still so hard somedays. A lot of the time I feel too tired to get up and exercise but, I just try to remember how good I feel afterwards and what the end result will be.
In other news, I'm starting back to school on the 22nd. Dare I say I'm excited? I'm glad that God has shown me what I should study after I felt like I shouldn't be pursuing Elementary Ed. Psychology it is. I should be finished with my Bachelors in about a year. I plan to get my masters in childhood development. This is what I'm excited about (aside from leaving Lucy...that will KILL me and I dread it already) I'm passionate about helping 'that kid' and finding learning plans for their teachers and families to help them. I really feel torn about leaving Lucy, though. I can't stand the thought of it. But, we'll jump that hurdle when we get to it. Right now I'm just thankful that I'm able to spend all day with her while completing my undergrad!
So, this is what has been going on with us lately. Lucy has been just as precious as always. She is such a joy. Everything she does amazes us. Tomorrow will make one year since we found out that she was going to be a part of our family. I think back to that day and how scared I felt and then I look to where God has brought me to today: A growingly confident mother enjoying each day with this little family. God has certainly provided all we need AND MORE in this past year. Aren't we so foolish for feeling so scared? Oh we of little faith! I'm so glad He has the patience to not only put up with me but grow me in His love (:
Well, I'm off to go enjoy this great "weather" (storm) we are having. Don't you just love a good storm?
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